Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Though this is the time that Mom and Dad are taking their vacation, my brother is going to Chicago with some friends. So that leaves me here alone during the 4th of July. However even though I am not leaving the state for the 4th of July as the rest of the immediate household I am hanging with my friend Jon for 4th of July. Though we don't have tons of plans. Just going to eat out, maybe rent a movie, and possibly going to the family park to see some fireworks. Woot.
I'm hoping Mom and Dad take my on air conditioned car to the airport so I can use Mom's car that has the great air conditioner. But it should be lots of fun. For everyone me thinks. Plus I will have the pool to myself for a couple days. XP
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Dad just opened the pool yesturday and it feels so good. Nice and cool. A great break from the horribly hot weather we are having. But supposedly the hot weather is gonna co down a bit. Now that the pool is open, I welcome the heat. Because now there is a nice place to cool off.
Note to self: this blog writing via cell phone is probably best done outside the pool. XP
but no worries. I have got no water on the phone. But I should put it down so to avoid dropping it in the pool.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Whats odd is that dad woke up my brother at 2 am asking if he noticed the power was out. Most people dont notice thing like that when they are asleep. Yet somehow he did. *eyebrow*
I didnt even notice til I woke up and heard our generator running and my bro told me.
Anyway, more randomness from Beauty via cell phone blogging since the generator cant keep the internet on.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Though I can technically get all that stuff out here if I wanted to, a seperate blog might be a good place to keep that organized. I will continue to think about it and it may go up sometime today . . . . or tommorrow. I guess it really depends on how I am feeling at the time. XP
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Such as lately Nick has been showing a lot of Avatar the Last Airbender episodes, so now that is one of the obsessions that has made it to the front and center. I'm not sure if it is the same for other people I just know that is how it works for me.
I kinda think of it as becoming re-obsessed with something. One week I am obsessed with Lost and then it kinda dulls when I am reminded of something else like Invader Zim. So I become re-obsessed with those things. So I have now coined the term Re-obsession. Which I totally think should be put into the dictionary. XD
Re-Obsession- A former obsession that is revisited after a reminder of some kind.
~ Just another random thought from Beauty.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
To make as much sense as possible I will give a bit of information about Gaia.
Gaiaonline is a community site in which you can save up gold in order to buy items for your avatars. There are many exclusive items that you need gaia cash for and are quite expensive to buy in the marketplace. There are forums and games that are good ways to earn gold. They have mentioned many times on Gaia that you should never give account information to anyone because admins and mods on Gaia will never ask for it.
Now lets be clear I had made this "friend" during an event on Gaia. She was trying to save up for an expensive item and I helped her out by donating tons of gold. I also gave her a list of charities on gaia that could help her too.
I am going to refer back to PM's because it is hard to remember every little thing, some places I may even quote.
She PM'd me with a link to a place that was supposedly giving away free gold. It sounded very inky since they never do that. And I checked it out. And this place asked for the persons username, e-mail, and password on gaia. So I replied to her that she shouldn't trust that site and that gaia never asks for someones password no matter what the circumstances.
Then she replied that she did it and gold like 1 million gold and gave some to friends. And that Its not a scam and I should try it. Of course I still wouldn't do it and I replied again.
"You may have got the gold, but I would change your password if I were you. I have been hacked before without using one of those sites. It's beyond suckish and takes forever to get your account back if you even do. Gaia says they will never ask for your password and it is not something I trust when they do."
She said I should try it anyway and that I should wait one day to see if it works. And I was still suspicious because I have been on Gaia for over 2 years and I know their rules and what is legit.
To which she said that she understood and that but the admins on the site use it which is why they need your password. I replied:
"That just doesn't make sense to me. I think I am going to e-mail and admin about this."
And of course I immediatly went to find a site admin that was online at the time and could respond promtly.
(At this point I will point out that I am not quoting her, because her english is . . . .well. . . suckish.)
She said that she didn't care what I did and that she tried it on other accounts and nothing bad happened so whatever. I simply said that it's fine if she wants to risk that, but I have been hacked before and it sucks when you lose all of the stuff it took you two years to get. And I didn't want to go through that again.
Then she said I could send all of my items to her if I was worried about it. Then she asked me for gold. And said that she gave some to friends and her friend hacked her and stole some of it. Um, wasn't that my point in the giving passwords away.
So I said:
"I won't be doing that. I PM'd an Admin and they told me it was a password phishing site and to not provide any information. So I will not. I knew there was somthing inky about it. And I would change your password. Whoever the person is now has yours and you wanna change it before they get the chance to hack you."
She said she knew "for sure" that it was a admin. Despite the fact that I talked to an admin myself about it. And tried to say you could sign up to be a mod, which is stupid in and of itself. And I told her that I reported it anyway as the admin suggested.
Then she said she did it with several accounts and said it worked and she didn't know what my problem was. So I replied again.
"I don't have a problem. At least not with you. I don't like the people who use those who are desperate for gold to get others private information. Places like that are how some people get hacked and lose everything. Though I have never used on of those sites I know what it feels like to lose everything. And I will do whatever it takes to stop that from happening to anyone else. I'm sorry if that upstes you. But it what I have to do to protect fellow gaians."
The last thing she has said was that I wasn't thinking about other gaia members and that I was being selfish. And that I don't know what it is like to want something and not have the money for it. And she said that everyone on gaia is mean and that nobody helps you out. And that the site is the only place where she can get gold and that I am not helping anyone but my self. Which made me mad and so I replied this last:
"I don't know what it's like? I have had a worse experiance then being new and poor. Though everyone has been there. I had tons of gold and items. Thing I had worked my butt off for 2 years to get. And one day I try to log on to find that someone had taken that away. I had to start all over. I lost everything. All my items, gold, cash, and worst. . . My name. That was more personal than anything. We all had to work hard to get gold. That's the point. And I want to stop anyone from going through a hacking like I did. I understand so much what it's like to try to get enough gold for what you want. Do you know what it's like to try to saveup for something you want that was stolen from you? And you are trying to tell me that nobody is willing to help? I donated over 100k to help you out. When you were a complete stranger. There are helpful people out there. But I guess you are going to ignore everything I did to try to help you."
She hasn't replied after that and she should be embarressed to if you ask me. She is likely going to get into trouble for using the site anyway and I personally think she deserves it.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Generally my online days started a long time ago on Fanfiction.net (FFN). I had started writing a bit during high school when I was bored and eventually moved to do a bit of fanfiction and posted it on FFN. Though I was generally a very new writer it wasn't a place that was good for giving a lot of helpful feedback.
Eventually, I decided that I wanted to try to expand my writing to some new places so I went to Google to search for fanfiction websites. That is where one of the first places I saw was Fanlib. It looked like a great site and after checking it out for a bit I decided to join. It was interesting since not only could you post fanfiction, but you could post original stories, poetry, and pictures. It seemed like the perfect place to expand my writing skills. And I was correct.
Fanlib was a place where people did more than just ask you to update. They gave corrections and helpful tips about how to become a better writer and after spending some time there I did. I had even moved to start posting in the forums and getting to know some of the other fanlibbers. Soon I had become great friends with many of them.
After a while on fanlib a group of newcomers came from another site that was closing down. Fanlib opened it's doors to them and helped them to become comfortable with a new place. Many of us helped out as well. Seeing as we could only imagine what it would be like to lose our online home. Many of us had thought of Fanlib as a home and though many people don't seem to get the love of a place like that, us fanlibbers did very well. Unfortunatly, we soon felt the reality of what our online home closing would feel like.
On July 23, 2008, Fanlib announced that they would be closing their doors. It was a time of panic for many of us fanlibbers. We began to overload the forums with questions as to why. But to this day there has never been given a real reason to the closure. Many of us flocked to new places and tried to find ways in which we would be able to keep in touch. The last thing we wanted was to lose the valuble friendships we had all made through our love of writing. Sadness had filled us all as the closing date grew near and several of us closed our accounts prematurly, wanting to feel as if we had some ounce of control over it.
Even though the community was online it was a place where we could all talk about common intrests and share the inner mechinisms of our minds with people who would understand us.
When Fanlib officially closed some fanlibbers announced the plan to make a new fanfiction site. A place where we could all go and keep in touch with old friends. And they wanted me and another friend to be mods on the site. It sounded too good to be true. And as it seems when such events happen that is when the drama comes out in full force. Lies were told and friends were lost. Some simple insults grew into a full fledged war. So much had happened in so little time. And I will share a bit of that time with you.
A new forum was created as a place for the Fanlib Refugees could hang out until the new site was formed (FanNation). And many of use spent a lot of time there continuing conversations from fanlib and enjoying each other's company. However things can get out of control fast and many times it happens when I am not even there for the beginning.
I had been told one day that someone had said some insulting things about me in one of the forums. They gave me the link and I went to check it out. After all I don't think it was fair for them to say things about me when I am not even there to defend myself. Luckily I did have some amazing friends who defended me. However what I didn't see where the supposed insults. The mod had erased half of the stuff going on. And though I understand the general idea for it, it annoyed me that I couldn't even find out what was being said. I posted my concern about that and let it go. I never got along real well with this person and I really didn't want to fight at the time. A friend of minde headed to LiveJournal to get out her frustration. This is something she does a lot because she feels as if it is a safe place to do so.
Apparently thats not true. My friend was verbally attacked by one of the other mods who it didn't even concern. And as she came to defend me before, I did the same for her. However this person continued to fight with the two of us and brought it back to the Refugees site. After a while we both cooled off and just decided to let the whole thing go. That is around the time another friend of mine had informed me that the admins of the new site wanted to replace me and the other friend as mods.
We both blew up after that. It was bad enough that we were put into this drama, but then they didn't even bother to tell us via e-mail. So we both had thought about not going to the new site. And of course one of the admins noticed us talking in the forums and e-mailed us. They went on about some nonsense that didn't really make any sense and said that they didn't officially make us mods. To which we both decided we didn't want to be anyway. We had also mentioned that if we are to be unconsidered from the job then the other party should be too. Seeing as they were fighting with us. However apparently that is not the same thing and they decided that they were above us. Though there was much more going on then just what is stated, this could be a book by the time I am done.
Anyway, these admins of the new site used to be friends of ours, but after all of the drama that went on we had lost our respect for them and couldn't possibly be friends with them. We both made the decision that we didn't want to be a part of the new website when we can't trust the people running it. And we went on our way.
After all of that drama I found my way to several other sites. I had spent a lot of time on Gaiaonline and occasionally FFN. But I had kept in touch with many friends from Fanlib via AIM and MySpace. So it was alright for a while.
However one day a non online related tragedy happended to me. A good friend of mine and my best friends fiance, died in a car accident. His friend was driving the car drunk and lost control. My friend was the only one who didn't make it. I was clearly upset and it was one of the few times that I desperatly needed to talk to someone. A friend of mine from Fanlib was on and though she is one of the people I talk to the least after Fanlib, I needed her. I had tried to talk and when I said I was upset she just replied that she didn't have time for that crap. As if I wasn't upset enough already, she had made it so much worse. She was a friend of mine and I am someone who almost never goes to others for help. I am too stubborn for that sometimes. However she had brushed me off like she didn't care about my feelings.
Luckily another friend had got online and she talked to me a for a while and calmed me down. But I never forgot how that one friend hurt me. I had even stopped trying to talk to her. I don't need friends like that, especially when they act like that in a time of need. Not to mention that she had done similar things to another friend.
That all had happened about 3 months ago. And I still don't really talk to that friend and I don't intend to again. And though many things have happened over that long period of time I did get quite a few good poems out of it. Some I may just put up here for people to read. But sometimes that is how I look at life. Another experiance I can use in my writing.